Mortified Beyond Belief

The last two weeks were very busy for the band. We played PJ's just last night, recorded a radio show, and released a new song. Koji has a 2nd child on its way that is due any day now. He had to miss our last two outings. I missed his bass a lot, especially last night. I think being a band is being willing to prove yourselves as survivors, playing shows any way, by any means. Sometimes we can't all make the shows. It it painful to be less than perfect though. So.... this is why the band is going to be rehearsing harder and more intense than ever before to get up to the standards of quality that I imagine in my mind. I consider the show last night to be a huge failure on my part, for reasons I would probably be better off not saying!!!!!!! I was still finishing my birthday celebratiion from the day before, but that really is no exscuse... because in all honesty that is not the first time it happened. I am not going to drink anymore. Even though I sometimes enjoy it a lot-- I

Hello people, I am a bad person, here I am sitting here. Getting drunk off of ONE 40, almost out of beer. I had financial sense at the checkout today. At midnight I will be one year older. One year deader. Nothing has really changed too much since my last birthday. The world sucks a dildo. I hate everyone. I am a bad person. I watched a stupid movie called "The Vow" today, it sucked so bad I didn't even finish it. I hate it that I am not a good looking person, like Channing Tatum. I hate that guy. I hate Justin Timberlake, he is in such good shape. What a depressing revelation. No one even commented on my activia diary. You dirty dildo cocksuckers. If I was a hot chick, all I would have to do is type 3 words, and I would get 28 comments or whatever--- but that doesn't even matter! What the frick am I doing talking about stuff that doesn't even exist! I wish I was sexier, but since I quit smoking, I am fatter and I haven't cut my hair in over a year! Oh wel